I was hacked off
this week. A friend relapsed, and it made me angry at first. How can anyone who
has significant clean time relapse. Once you have several years and see life is
amazing without drugs/alcohol, what could possess you to use again?
Then I
remembered how cunning, baffling and strong addiction can be. I thought back to
my relapses in the past. I no longer wanted to use, yet I did anyway. There
were multiple reasons that I relapsed. In a way they were useful to me because
I always learned and grew from them.
In the wake of
his relapse, I reflected on the things that have kept me rocking a sober
recovery this time. Never forget, your addiction is in the back of your
head: running on a treadmill, lifting weights and doing research! It is getting
stronger and smarter each and every day, trying to figure out the best way to
take over your life again. This is to be avoided at all costs!!
If our addiction
is getting stronger and smarter, we obviously need to insure our recovery is
stronger than our addiction. The question is, how do we strengthen our
recovery? There is no easy way. In fact, it can be difficult at first.
